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_AM: Think very carefully, where are you going? Which is your destination? Are you really on the path you expected to travel? Look around you, at every step, everything that is surrounding you. Is what you live in your life consistent with what you have thought, with the expectations you have designed? Now close your eyes and tell me... Does everything you experience resonate with you? Are you coherent when expressing what vibrates in you? Or do you remain in silence and lies for the simple fact of surviving in that environment that you do not recognize or accept? And what do you do through that means? Do you see yourself fluctuating between the echoes of the external being driven by your ideas, or simply by the reaction of your story? The question is whether what you do, you do it out of love and dedication, or out of the need to be accepted. Well, keep in mind that everything you do and decide will have a consequence, and will come back to you. But by the time it returns to you, you will recognize it as a conflict, and you will separate yourself in the fight against that which you yourself produced, because everything you experience, you have generated. What, then, is what you have generated in your life? Is your life really what you hoped to create?
_I: …There are many questions, deep ones, that take a lifetime…
_AM: And many more. Well, it's the Search you're on. As they told you today in the Pyramid of Khafre, the only safe destiny in life is Death. And it is precisely death that allows you to ask these questions. Knowing that everything will end, that there is an end, an inevitable destiny, is what awakens the search for self-knowledge, of asking if what I do is what I want to do, if I am coherent. Therefore, I ask: If you knew that today you were going to die, do you think your life would have been worth it?
_I: Personally I think so. My life has been worth it, because everything I have sought to do so far, I have achieved, I have done it, I have achieved it. There are many more things on my path that I hope to accomplish, too many. However, I feel complete, happy, in balance. I am ready to die. Maybe, just 3 months ago it wasn't. To be honest, until 3 months ago I had high expectations of my life, believing that I had to do great things, messianic things. I believed that I had to make a difference by doing something that marks history, something incredible like the YOSOY Journey around the world, and then do social and educational policy, perhaps generating a revolution of consciousness. If you had asked me this question 3 months ago, I would have told you that it wasn't worth it, that my life had lost meaning, and that I needed much more to be able to do everything. However, today I find myself in a different situation. After meditating day by day on myself and with everyone, I realized that the greatest journey of consciousness I could take in my life was to share my Inner Path. I understood that day by day I manage to do what completes me, what gives me meaning, and that expectations fade when you recognize your truths.
_AM: Therefore, this year you must die. Because now you know what it means, now you understand the meaning of what death represents in the concept of philosophy. Death, the end, is the key to doubt. Doubt is flexible, Affirmation is rigid. To flow, you have to doubt, you have to ask yourself questions, and the questions lead you to know that nothing can be static, that every idea transforms. The idea that everything can end makes us realize that meaning lies in the wisdom I acquire to see existence. Therefore, your feet were not designed to reach a destination, but to navigate the eternal search. Every land animal has had to migrate, it has had to adapt to changes in climate, moving in other directions, looking for safety and food. In humans, the feet have been these useful tools, and the expectation of moving forward, of reaching a destination, is placed on them. They frame and anchor the idea of learning from the path, of making one's way, of discovering, recognizing. The journey towards the discovery of safety and food became an Initiatory Path, and that initiation arose to escape the hunger and fear that lead to death. And yet, the further you go on the path, the closer you are to death. Life is a journey without a destination. It is simply a ceaseless search with an end. Thus, the Initiatory Path recognized that seeking to survive was useless, and awakened the inner search. Faith, the divine food, which shows us doors to the afterlife, which gives meaning to a path beyond death, which gives security in the belief of a Heaven, of a new world of light. The heavenly utopia. But, to get there, you have to learn to fly lightly, you have to clear up your internal doubts, you have to open yourself up to explore the most hidden places inside, to release the tensions and hardships of the soul. This is how the “Search” arises. This word comes from the Indo-European “bhudh-sko”, which means “to conquer, win”. In English, the word “seek” comes from the Latin “sagire,” which means “to keenly perceive a scent,” like the wolf searching for its prey. In both cases, the word implies having the ability to smell to obtain something. The ability to get, to earn a living, food, security. And yet, this concept led to the idea of “earning Heaven.”
_I: But… That's not what searching really means, is it?
_AM: Every current culture has built the idea of search in an external aspect that implies acquiring something as a result, taking hold of something. However, with death as your only destiny, you cannot even know if you have been worthy of earning Heaven. Therefore, despite believing or having faith, people avoid death, for this security. Everyone knows well that no one has earned heaven. Everyone doubts, and therefore they return to life, going around in circles, denying death. That's when, looking back, you ask yourself: what is the meaning of life? That's when you realize that the only thing you can gain in life is your ability to interpret and share it, to live each day as the last, and to surrender completely to the capacity for wonder and learning, something you call Wisdom. . Wisdom is not earned, it is discovered. Knowledge can be conquered, but wisdom can only be felt.
_I: In Saytu (Atlantean language), the word seek is said “afor”, which means “to look at the flow that bears fruit in the advancing mind.” That is to say that the fruit is not the objective, but rather the fruits are what show the achievements of the mind, which is what really remains.
_AM: The spiritual search is not obtaining the fruits of actions, but understanding the meaning of them. Therefore, we must ask ourselves the questions of existence. What are you really looking for in life? Is it a feeling? Is it an emotion? Is it a purpose, or a mission? Is it living fully? And what does that really mean? Aren't Plenitude and Harmony a sentimental state? Is the purpose you seek to achieve because it comes from you as a service to the Whole or because you seek to be recognized and remembered for what you have done? Recognize, human, that every goal you have set for yourself in your life has as its objective a mere emotional and sentimental state. You are so tied to the concepts of emotion of the soul, that you fail to see that one day this will end, and that the emotion was a chemical reaction that will die, and that the feeling will disappear like your senses when your brain turns off. What beings from other planes express in you are not emotions, the emotions you feel from beings from other dimensions are only your biological interpretations of their resonances. Will you continue, then, designing a life whose sole objective is to feel an emotion?
_I: You just destroyed me... That is, the meaning of everything, the reason why we move forward, why we are in our search, is directly linked to a personal need to feel security and fulfillment...
_AM: Nobody is altruistic. The only altruist is one who faces death and discovers emptiness, and instead of entering into depression or the struggle of meaninglessness, he sheds himself to become everyone. The paths of search, then, are divided into those who project their own needs onto an end, and those who live the end without needs. Which of them are you?
_I: …I'm still from the first group… I still have high expectations. I recognize that what I do has a personal interest: the fear of oblivion makes me want to be remembered... The fear of meaninglessness makes me want to be loved... The fear of the eternal makes me want to experience momentary pleasures... The dislike of what is dissonant In life it makes me want to build a world as I wish and believe is better... Everything I do, I do for recognition. Although I deny it, now I know that I deny it because it is what I seek most, because I fear being forgotten as many times happened to me. And the fear of not completing my mission and returning again is not because I do not want to return, but because I do not want to leave frustrated for not having achieved what I wanted and expected. I want to reach my old age looking back and sighing the calm of realization... To put a period to a long sentence of 12,000 years...
_AM: Very good! You see it? Did you see how many things were anchored deep in your being that you would not recognize without the questions, without remembering that you will die? We all do everything for something, for an end, and all these ends are selfish, because they only seek personal fulfillment, before seeing the fruits of our actions. And yet, you will not see them if you live in expectation.
_I: So… What should I do?
_AM: Turn the phrase around: if you have started the quest to reach a destination, then make your destination the quest.
_I: Wouldn't that be moving in circles without ever leaving the circuit?
_AM: Go out where? Do you think you're onto something? Limits are a gift on your path of search, but they do not exist. Death is a gift of liberation, but not of a place, but of a concept. Everything that exists is a journey of which the destination is always the I Am. Your body is a tool, a vehicle designed to make that journey, to feel it and enjoy it. You must learn to differentiate the pilot from the machine. If you build your purposes based on the chemical reactions of your body, you are always living in a mechanical workshop. You must see beyond. And that beyond is not on the horizon, it is inside, in the person who is driving, and not even in his body, but in his intention. What makes this little person want to get into a car to start the trip?
_I: Looking at it this way, it is very difficult for a human who lives in a physical body full of emotional and biological preconceptions. How can you get out of this concept if you are him today? Isn't it counterproductive to say: “live and accept your body” and on the other hand say “it is the body that prevents you from seeing clearly?”
_AM: Knowing how to drive a car doesn't make you become the car, right? What you just asked me is the same as saying that the only way to travel through life is by turning yourself into a car, putting wheels on it and putting fuel through some hole...
_I: Hehe… I understand.
_AM: And on the other hand, the driver must take good care of the car, the vehicle is all he has for such a trip. He must take good care of it, feed it, respect it, treat it with affection, because the car is his own creation. To heal and respect the body is to become the mechanic of this body, this vehicle, and yet you are the driver. Is it the car that determines your destiny, or are you the one driving?
_I: Sure, I understand. We live in the vehicles that we created to carry out the search, and in the habit of traveling we believed ourselves to be cars, comparing tires, doing illegal races, adding accessories to it, decorating it, going out of our way to look at the car as if it were the only thing that existed. When in reality we should honor and love it, knowing that it is the spirit that must guide the way, not the fuel we call emotion.
_AM: If you let your life be guided by the emotion of achieving a goal, you will be traveling from gas station to gas station, desperately seeking to refill the tank of emotions so you can continue. You will miss the landscape and the adventure, the learning, the views, the moments of contemplation, the walks on the sides of the road. Therefore, if you build life in the sense of continuing to feed the body and living only for it, you will never be in the true search, you will only find yourself running to please yourself at the next stop.
_I: What should I recognize today?
_AM: You must ask yourself the question: “What is the emotion that moves me in the search?” That is, write what you feel and what excites you when projecting your destiny. The emotions that drive you, and the feelings you seek to feel at the end of your life. If you had to die today... What would you feel?
_I: I'll get to it... That way I'll know where I'm living from, what emotion I'm using for everything I do.
_AM: Remember: Your destiny is the search.