Pillars
_AM: Everything that has hurt you, everything that has damaged you, traumatized you in your life, is what your conscience recognizes as “bad.” As I told you, bad, in Greek, it is called “Kakós”, origin of the word poop. The fecal matter of life is what we leave for last, what we consider the emotional or social spoils, hidden at the bottom of the jar. Therefore, fecal comes from the Latin “faex, fecis”, which is the residue that accumulates at the bottom of the wine. What our mind usually does with what is considered good and bad in our life is to discern, select, divide, and normally take out what is of no use, and this is the origin of “excrete”, that is, “ex-” (take out outside), “ceret” (discern). Discernment is a human way in which you manage to separate what is useful from what is not useful. But you have moralized it to the point of separating it completely. As we said, everything excreted from the body is a product not assimilated by the body. Imagine now the evil of the world. It does not appear simply because there is evil in it, in its nature. It arises because these people have not been assimilated, they have not given their best when it was due, and they have closed themselves off and been traumatized by the pressure of the environment that turned them into “excrement.” That is, it made the rest of society, in its discernment, classify them as “poop.”
_I: That is to say that these people need to be reintegrated into society, through forgiveness...
_AM: Yes, but to do so they must become useful. Forgiveness is not forgetting, it is understanding, perfecting, freeing from judgment by educating in something new and transcendental. Just like a trauma, we must understand the logic, the origin, the why, and this will lead us to understand what we have achieved thanks to it. As we said yesterday: “the injury from the first fall on a bicycle reminds you that today you know how to ride a bicycle.” Today is just a reminder of what you have achieved, of trial and error. In life nothing is divided, the bad is there as fertilizer for the good. Most of the time we do not realize that we have to change until a crisis, a negative event, something bad or even horrible happens. It is only in this situation that the advances of history have occurred, in the reaction of the being that, upon seeing the bad, realizes that if it had not happened, no one would have known, which leads to transformative action.
_I: But in that case, is it really necessary for bad things to happen?
_AM: It is if you live from the subconscious and the unconscious. The unconscious sees the fire and touches it. Until he burns he doesn't recognize what fire can do. The Conscious observes and analyzes the fire, and brings a stick or paper closer to see the reaction without needing to burn, and discovers its power in the same way. Do humans make fire prisons for having burned a forest or a house?
_I: No…
_AM: Because fire is not aware of what it does. Just like people who do evil. Someone who does evil is not conscious, he is unconscious, because he does not understand his true power and uses it according to his needs. But if that person, like the fire, is controlled, in the sense of educating him to use his inner fire, giving it a purpose, giving it a focus instead of locking him up with punishment, it will not explode, but will heat up. food, forge tools, and many other things.
_I: We have to re-educate... That is, bring out the best in each human, turn them into fertilizer, not excrement.
_AM: And the only way is through Forgiveness. Let go of the preconception, recognize the fertilizer in those people or situations that cause harm. They often say that evil is premeditated and that someone who causes harm is conscious of it, without understanding the true weight of the word conscious. Consciousness comes from the Latin “cum” and “scientia”, which mean “with” and “knowledge”. In this case, “Awareness” (in noun form) means “having knowledge of the environment.” But when we say “Consciousness” (with “s” in the middle), we mean having knowledge of oneself beyond the environment, that is, having wisdom. A person, then, can be aware of his environment or aware of himself in said environment. They are the Pillars of Being. Knowledge and Wisdom.
_I: In other words, a person who does evil is someone who does not know the truth about their environment and themselves, acting out of an emotional reaction.
_AM: No one who is conscious would harm the life of another living being. But it would become useful to life in general.
_I: You could say then that we must help people change to be aware of this.
_AM: Not only people, but also situations. When you fell and hurt yourself learning to ride a bike, no one was to blame, it just happened. However, that simple fact can be considered a trauma, one that has given you the tools to know how to ride a bicycle. When someone hit you and it hurt a lot, it is considered a trauma. One of which you, in awareness of said knowledge, must discern how you will assimilate it: acting from forgiveness to stop the repetitive cycle, or reacting from revenge, thus keeping the cycle rotating. Change can come in two ways here: we can force the other to change from our immutable vision, or change ourselves to cause change in the other. In the first case, you will most likely generate a quick and negative reaction, but in the other you will generate a slightly longer but effective and decisive process.
_I: That is to say that I must support the two pillars, not impose them on the other.
_AM: All change is external, and all transformation is internal. Changes generate crises, traumas, reactions. Transformations are own and self-managed choices through taking action. The first is useful in periods of Unconsciousness, the second is useful in periods of Consciousness. Normally, human lives move in unconscious environments dominated by the family, the group, the culture, the society, the species. There are many conditions that do not allow you to think clearly from your “I am.” The constant projection in the “we are” makes them be carried by a sea current, from one side to the other, without being able to control their own walk. You have no power from your own pillars.
_I: How do I start to gain firmness in my own pillars of consciousness?
_AM: First, recognize all the changes that have necessarily led you to transformation. List them. Tell me, what were the changes in your life that pushed you into a crisis of inevitable change?
_I: I made my list. The first big change that forced my entire world to change was when I was 12, when I started to remember. Everything in me changed forcibly, because of something I couldn't control. Then there was the move to Spain when I was 14, something that changed my life completely and that did not depend on me. At 20 or 21 years old, it was leaving university, something I refused to do for a long time and was forced to leave. The next big inevitable change was doing the 11:11 Gathering, as I was practically forced to do it as well as the Harwitum Trail, which came later due to this gathering. The next strong and painful change was the end of the Path of the Dragon, a painful year in my life that slipped out of my hands. The next unexpected change was falling in love with Wiktor, which took me into a void like I had never experienced before. This was followed by the sudden loss of some of my family and friends, something I did not see coming. And the last thing, the Quarantine, which modified the entire YOSOY Camino just 3 months before it began. Ugh… Writing it all down in a single paragraph is both distressing and liberating.
_AM: Above all Liberating… Right?
_I: Yes... Because now that I look back, I discover that each of those changes brought me greater stability, more firmness, more awareness of the world, more awareness of myself.
_AM: And nothing you did, you would have done if it weren't for these changes. Now... Why do you think you experienced them?
_I: Because in most of them, I was unconscious. That is to say, what made me experience them as changes and not as transformations was my resistance to them, my unconsciousness about what they meant.
_AM: Do not blame yourself for not knowing, because life exists to learn. Consciousness will not eliminate uncertainty, anguish or crises. What consciousness will do is give it a purpose, a logic, it will help you go through it until you find the answer. Unconsciousness will plunge you deeper into unnecessary suffering for not seeing that everything always has a logic and a reason. And that why it is not planned before, is in the understanding of what has been learned. As you look back, you will see what you have achieved, and all the traumas and crises, the great changes that have forced you to change in life, are the foundations of your Pillars today. Where do you find yourself standing today? The answer to this question can only be answered by analyzing what brought us here. So, ask yourself the question: “What were the big external changes that have forced you to get to where you are today?”
_I: I stand up, firm in my awareness of what happened, to assimilate the awareness of what I am today thanks to it.
_AM: Honor your path. When you understand the big changes, you will make the bad things that have happened to you a fertilizer for your future transformations.
_I: I am a Pillar of Consciousness Change, I am a Pillar of Conscious Transformation.