I Am the Center
_I: Today I asked myself this question in the pyramid… Why should I be the center of all this?
_AM: And what conclusion did you come to?
_I: Well... 5 years ago, right here, the teachers told me that I should work on the I Am, and I interpret that the best way to do it is from an I, that is, that many are reflected in one.
_AM: Every circle has a center, every sphere has a nucleus.
_I: Yes, I know, all edges converge in a node, all stories have an origin... However, there is something that I can't quite accept about this.
_AM: What?
_I: Being the center of attention... Let everyone look at me.
_AM: But you chose to be born under the sign of Leo, to be a lion, the center, the king, to be able to cope. What is the problem, then?
_I: Just that, the Ego. To reach the I AM, one must first go through one's ego, and all its aspects and edges. The I have the same concept, I am I, my personality. It is a great responsibility to talk about each person's I Am but still be the one that everyone observes, as an example, perhaps...
_AM: Do you know what your real fear is?
_I: Which…?
_AM: The Messianic Complex.
_I: Obviously that's part of it. In history, there has always been a search for an envoy, someone special to follow, in whom to trust and place hopes for a better world. And as you said, being mammals, we look for that even by nature, we always need references. But at the same time, the references are destroyed, beaten with thousands of arguments, destroyed by those who observe them. They turn them into martyrs. Humans have no middle ground. And I don't want to be that. It's a lot of expectation on me.
_AM: You can't control what others project onto you. You can only control what you believe about yourself. What do you believe about yourself? Have you been sent?
_I: I have been sent, yes, by myself, and by many aspects of me in different dimensions.
_AM: So, you are a messiah. If we go to the etymology of the word, Messiah means “Anointed One”, it comes from the tradition of blessing the new king with consecrated oil on his forehead and head. That is, it is a synonym for being Chosen, Designated. So, it is just a semantic or linguistic question: If you chose yourself, you are your own Messiah.
_I: Yes, but it is not like that on a social and cultural level.
_AM: Do you know what the great conflict between the social and the cultural is? They always hope to be saved by someone, but when those options appear, they discredit them because they do not believe that someone can save them. A paradox, right? But it is a sacred paradox. Well, if someone really came to save them, no one would ever learn that they are capable of saving themselves. No one would ever discover that they have the power within themselves to change their world. We are all the center of something, even those who believe they are alone. We all have an environment in which we move, and an environment that moves through us. If we are all reflections of a center, then, by the law of fractals, we are all the center of our own universe, and if we call that projection of the center outwards a path, a journey, this means that deep within us, we were all sent to walk this path. That is, we were all “Sent”. And if we were all sent, we all have within us the strength and capacity to be the saviors of our own world, of our day. We are all our own Messiah.
_I: Some then have sent themselves to fulfill a mission to help the whole world, others to a smaller world, others perhaps to their family, or friends, or perhaps some animal, or forest, or perhaps a relationship… We are all then “saviors”.
_AM: We are all reflections, each one is the center of a new cosmos, it is the alpha and omega of its own reality. Do you remember the message you were given in the Ring of Brodgar?
_I: “Do not place yourself next to the other stones in the circle, because your place is the center, accept the place that belongs to you.”
_AM: Accept that this is your story, and that it is your responsibility. Be an example of being in the center. Of course you are a messiah, as everyone is, every person in this world is a messiah waiting to awaken, Christ lives in each one of them, in you, in all of them equally. The Sequoia is not more important than the Moss, both fulfill the same function, both bring light to matter, and both unconditionally deliver oxygen to living beings. The rest are just forms. Maybe the redwood has a much broader perspective of the forest, but the moss spreads over much more territory than the redwood. The moss seeks to climb the sequoia, taking it as an axis, but it does not consider that its life only passes through it, because it knows well that it is the light that gives it life. The moss that only believes in the redwood as a path to enlightenment is a moss that will dry out sooner or later. You understand?
_I: I think so…
_AM: So, the sequoia must stop being a sequoia to conform to the moss? Should moss strive to be like the redwood?
_I: No, each one must be what they should be.
_AM: The forest works through exchange, through networks. Branches and roots interconnect, species unite and function as a single organism, and yet each stands firm in itself. He is not afraid to be who he is, because he knows that he must exist for things to happen.
_I: It must be the center for there to be a circle.
_AM: If there is no center, the nodes disperse, it does not make sense, they do not find the reference to become their own circle, express their own creation. You only fear that they will hate you for being who you are... And you know well where it comes from...
_I: Yes, yesterday I saw it... While I was meditating, while I was guiding the alignment, the part of the body that I felt was bothering me was the pancreas, the emotion I felt in my hands was the emptiness of meaninglessness, and the idea that passed through My head was bald. When I put them before my heart and said: “give meaning to the 3”, I immediately saw my grandfather, Héctor. My grandfather was bald from almost 20 years old, and I was always afraid of being bald like him. Throughout his life, he lived in a meaningless state, and he died at age 52 of diabetes… Pancreas. Over time I understood that diabetes was the lack of love that he had throughout his life. He was the survivor of about 5 forced abortions of his mother by my great-grandfather. He never wanted it. The doctor saved his life. His only axis was his mother, who died at the age of 52. He always wanted to die at the same age as his mother, and in that void, he stopped taking his medicine, and let himself die, in a gentle suicide, at the age of 52, as he wanted.
_AM: And what made you understand this?
_I: That I'm afraid of not being loved. To lose the meaning of my life, and for nothing to be worth it.
_AM: And… Tell me… Does that emotion belong to you?
_I: ...Well, it's an inheritance, from my grandfather... But, it's his.
_AM: So... If it's not yours, it's a projection of your past, of the circle. What would happen if you decide to leave the circle and go to the center?
_I: It would be me, I would give meaning to my life and I would not live for others.
_AM: The plexus… The pancreas. We all live in relationship and symbiosis with others. We are the forest, we are all interconnected, circles within circles, infinitely, each one with a function, but all sharing the idea that we are not without the others. And that is true, but we have projected a lot of importance into mere projections. You place too much weight on what others project onto you, when you are the one who projects onto others. You use your grandfather's excitement as a way to escape the responsibility of living. Losing your hair, an expression of being stressed, of losing connection with life. You are very loved, but do you love yourself?
_I: Every day I learn to love myself more.
_AM: I'm glad. Because that is the greatest love you can receive. The love of others is only a reflection of your ability to love yourself. Give your grandfather the love he couldn't give himself, and the way you will do it is by loving yourself as he couldn't give himself.
_I: Ego… Go to myself. But doesn't that disconnect me from others? It is exactly what everyone fears, what I fear, thinking only of myself, being egocentric for dedicating myself to myself.
_AM: Others are mere reflections of you, if you love yourself, you will love others as if they were yourself. You can't give a love you don't have. “Only Love will set you free.” Remember? The idea of the Self and the Others does not really exist, since there is no separation. To be at the service of others without first having been at your own service is to deliver nothing but emptiness. Loving others without loving yourself first is the most hypocritical thing you can do. You won't save anyone if you don't save yourself. And therefore, you will not awaken in others the ability to see themselves as Messiahs if you do not accept yourself as such.
_I: The messianic complex... It takes on another meaning. Society seeks changes, seeks to transform, but fears doing so, and when others undertake to do so, they are assigned an egoic and messianic role. But it is only because they cannot accept that the only way to transform the world is by transforming themselves, setting out on their own path, and that the only way to change the real world is by believing that they can do it.
_AM: It is foolish to think that one can change the world without believing that one can do it first. The illusion, the madness, the will. What's the point of doing everything if I don't give it meaning? How can I make a difference, if I am not different? How can I give a message without being a messenger? How can I make you believe if I don't believe in myself?
_I: What you're telling me is that, if everything is part of an idea, what difference does it make what they think of me, what others have projected onto me? I must believe myself capable of doing everything. If I believe that by connecting the network I will change the world, I must do it, if I remember having been sent, I must act with the responsibility of having been sent, and free myself from the projections inherited by family and society.
_AM: A society that seeks to be different and criticizes what is different is a sick society. A family that seeks love and does not give love is a sick family. A being that seeks to be and fears to be is a sick being.
_I: I must transcend the fear of being who I chose to be, and love myself as I believe in myself.
_AM: External projections only show you what you yourself project. Be consistent, and you will receive consistency. Now, love yourself, and free your grandfather from his sorrow, and your being from his disbelief.
_I: The message is to believe that you can be the center, that we are all sent, that we all came to save our little part of the world, and that only by positioning ourselves in our center will we achieve it.
_AM: Remember today the one who marks the path that everyone must travel...
Me today? Benjamín Solari Parravicini, the Argentine prophet; It is his birthday, and it caught my attention that it is right on the YOSOY portal day.
_AM: It's time, walker... It's time to go to the silver beaches, where the new lighthouse will illuminate the world at the 12th hour.
_I: We must believe, then, that we have all come together for a plan, to make a difference.
_AM: The circle begins to close...
_I: And the IAM is the Center.