Adventure
_I: I find myself sitting in a park in front of the Great Pyramid, staring at it, with the naturalness of seeing a palm tree, and I realize that seeing it has become routine. Today there is a sandstorm, and everything looks a little gray, both the buildings and the sky, the whole environment is in the same sandy color. Monotonous.
_AM: What do you think?
_I: That I'm not inspired. Today I feel like the weather... Sandy, cloudy, monotonous, boring...
_AM: No ideas...
_I: Yes, as if there was nothing to do…
_AM: But there is.
_I: Well… That of course. I can write, paint, organize things that I need to finish, but I'm doing all of that a little bit, but there's no rush. Because nothing pressures me...
_AM: You need the pressure…
_I: Yes, I always live with the pressure that every 3 days something will happen and I need to readjust. Not here... I mean, I'm fine, but it's disconcerting that there's no disconcerting.
_AM: The routine…
_I: Yes. I admire those who can live in routine, who feel safe in it. From August 2020 to August 2021 my days will all be the same. Sometimes things change, I have some friends who have come and will come, other people for initiation trips... But, it is always the same. This month I learned that I should not go to the pyramid every day, because no matter how much my spirit was elevated, there was something that was not right, my body could not tolerate it, I needed to rest, so I chose to respect it. This changed my routine, but made it even more monotonous.
_AM: You feel like a cloistered monk.
_I: Yes…
_AM: I know what I'm going to tell you will bore you... But the emotional state is not due to what you do but rather to what you feel while doing it.
_I: I imagine that's how it is, of course. Part of creativity, of the ability to express.
_AM: Today you are uncomfortable... Why?
_I: Do I have to talk about this seriously?
_AM: Yes…
_I: Ugh… Ok. It's been 4 days since I stopped feeling pain in my anus and rectum, but it's been 5 days since I can't... Do... Anything.
_AM: Defecate.
_I: Thank you… For the word. If that. And I know that you will tell _I: “what are you afraid of letting go?”…
_AM: Okay. What are you afraid of letting go?
_I: I don't know... I can't figure out... I still don't see what it is that I'm afraid to let go.
_AM: What have you had to give up to be here?
_I: Traveling… Being in contact with others…
_AM: The same thing has happened to everyone. But you. That?
_I: Projects… Family… Friends… Loves… But I don't mean for the fact of being here, but to be able to be here.
_AM: Exactly. To do what you do, you have had to let go of many, and your body refuses to let go of what it thought was good. But there is a greater fear, which only has to do with you...
_I: To be… Myself… That is my fear… To change, to let myself go… I fear this December 14th…
_AM: Why?
_I: Because I feel that when one longs for relationships with other people or projects, what one longs for most was the version that one is in relation to it. And the eclipse that is approaching, this December 14, 2020, is like... Which makes me wonder: what if now what is asked of me is that I just leave the version?
_AM: Yourself… In your old self.
_I: Yes. Let's see... This eclipse will occur in Patagonia, whose greatest shadow will occur at 1:13 p.m. Argentina on Route 8 of Río Negro, near the La Esperanza ranch. As I have already said, years ago I wrote a book in which in a parallel reality I was preparing to die there at 87 years old, to leave a message to my 2020 self, telling me through death: “there is hope to do everything again.” in a better way.” In this book, my grandson in that parallel reality, following my footsteps, arrives in Egypt and lies inside the Pyramid, where he reconnects with everything he must do to correct a universal error. It's a fiction, but this year when I saw the eclipse, right there, I said to myself: oh no, it's real, this 14 something will happen to me... A message from the future of my own self. This month of December will be very important in many things, and I feel that there is something about me that may begin to transform, and it is as if my body does not want it to happen...
_AM: Why?
_I: I'm afraid of stopping being myself. I don't know.
_AM: You will never stop being yourself, no matter what you connect with. You can only add things to what you are, but not stop being. I am all your possibilities, and I sustain what you are. Transforming is not Changing, it is not stopping being something to be something else, but adding. This is a new time that begins, and you need to be prepared...
_I: I know…
_AM: Everyone must be prepared, open to receive what will move from December 14 to December 21. She is a hinge.
_I: What's coming?
_AM: I can't tell you.
_I: Why?
_AM: It would be ruining a movie or a good book. Life is a book that has a very clear index, but to see the development you need to read and interpret it yourself.
_I: So in the index it says: Page 12/21/2020… “Jupiter and Saturn conjunction in New Moon at 0 degrees Aquarius”… Then, you have to read the chapter…
_AM: That's right... But this is an interconnected book, in which if you don't read everything, you don't understand.
_I: From start to finish?
_AM: Of course not. The Universe does not have a beginning and an end... You can start wherever you want, but depending on your interpretation, you must continue reading backwards or forwards.
_I: Like those “Choose Your Own Adventure” books.
_AM: That's right. Life is an adventure. The word comes from the Latin “ad” (towards), “venire” (come, arrive) and “urus” (future suffix). Everything together means: “Uncertain events that are yet to come.” Routine makes your life seem predictable, and that bores you, it makes you see everything gray. But it is only a moment of preparation prior to the Adventure. To the things you don't know are there to come.
_I: Why do we need Adventure?
_AM: “What would happen if…?” The Universe was asked during creation. The Being that is and knows everything, said... "What if I do it differently?" That gave him freedom.
_I: Why?
_AM: Because knowing everything makes you a slave to your mind. Not knowing what will happen makes your imagination more flexible to create. The capacity for inventiveness, development, and learning are all born from the unknown, from uncertainty, from not knowing. The will to move to discover is always doing something to which you do not know the answer. Being comfortable in the position of “the one who knows everything”, the one who can predict the future, the one who lives like a Swiss watch, the one who believes himself to be the owner of the truth; All of this will only lead you to find yourself among the dullest and most tasteless creations and expressions of reality.
_I: So venturing is not going on an adventure with a backpack towards the horizon and seeing what happens, or climbing a mountain, or traveling around the world... But adventure is the quality of being surprised and learning in discovery.
_AM: To achieve this you must always do something minimal that changes your routine, no matter how silly it may be. Give your brain, soul and body the option to experience something unexpected that they cannot recognize. An adventure can simply be going left instead of right to the place I always go. The road will be longer, but your brain will feel excitement. An adventure can be changing a scheduled time, or not setting the alarm clock. There is no need to take a plane and fly to the Congo and immerse yourself among wild gorillas. The adventure is recovering the amazement.
_I: I like that. Being amazed at doing something different, at the result that it brings me. Writing this post today was an adventure for me, because I had no idea it would come to this...
_AM: Recover the gaze of the child, of the game, of the fun, of not knowing what you will do that day. The capacity of the creative universe lies in the question: “What would happen if…?”
_I: What would happen if I entered another pyramid today? What would happen if I painted today? What would happen if I traveled today? What would happen if I talked to someone new today?
_AM: Endless possibilities open up, parallel realities.
_I: Like my future self who said: What would happen if I let myself die in “La Esperanza”, in the middle of Patagonia? And what happened was this great adventure that has been my life…
_AM: Maybe it's time for you to let something die so you can start a new adventure...
_I: This encourages me more… Yes… I will. It reminded me of that story about how Jules Verne, when he was a child, decided to run away from his house to get on a boat and embark on a great adventure. His father noticed him and went to look for him at the next port, where after beating him, she took him home and forbade him to leave, and he never traveled again. This inspired him to travel with his imagination, and if it had not been for that unfortunate and hopeless situation, we would never have had the greatest adventure books in history today: Around the World in 80 Days, Journey to the Center of the Earth, From the Earth to the Moon, Mysterious Island, and many others…
_AM: The greatest adventure lives in your imagination. Let go of the fears and expectations that bind you, and allow yourself to dream the greatest of adventures.