Resentment
_I: Today is Friday the 13th... One of those days people consider unlucky. What's special about this day?
_AM: Nothing... It just coexists as a collective code of bad luck...
_I: What is luck?
_AM: Luck, Suerte in spanish, comes from the word "sortis," which means "plot of land," that is, a parcel for planting. In the division of lands in the Roman Empire, the Drawing or Lottery was precisely to distribute plots of land for planting, and not all of them are good for crops, so it all depended on chance. In English, the term "luck" originates from "galukki," from the language of the Franco-Germans, meaning "fortune," that is, the wealth one could accumulate "under lock and key" (related to the term "lock").
_I: And what does this term have to do with Friday the 13th?
_AM: This date is related to the Christian world. Firstly, according to Christian tradition, Jesus was crucified on a Friday, so the weight of his death upon sinners falls on Friday. On the other hand, what marked Friday the 13th as a tragic day was precisely that on a day like today, but in October 1307, the last Templars were killed at the hands of Pope Clement V and King Philip IV of France. The situation was basically that the Crusaders, during the Crusades in the Holy Land around the year 1100, discovered hidden secrets about the history of Jesus Christ inside a Temple that would change the Church's vision. So they decided to create a secret Brotherhood to protect this knowledge, and they called themselves the Knights of the Order of the Temple, or the Templars. All roads that were once part of the Ancient Roman Empire were now traversed by these medieval knights, who ensured protection for travelers between east and west. Due to the instability of the region and the thieves lurking for travelers, the Templars created an economic security system based on checks. Travelers, instead of carrying their wealth with them, had papers authorized by the Templars for the value of their wealth, which they could exchange for food and lodging, and even cash in the value of their goods upon reaching their destination. That is, they created the first Banks. They grew economically so much through this loan system that they had even lent money to the King of France himself. The Vatican Kingdom, whose power at that time resided in Avignon, France, felt threatened by the growing power of this group, and together with the King, they decided to persecute them. They gathered them all and on a Friday the 13th, they publicly executed them. From that moment, the Templars became a legend. But what most popularized this event was the curse of the Templar Grand Master Jacques de Molay, who years later, after being imprisoned, in memory of that fateful Friday the 13th, condemned the Pope and the King to die within a year and 13 generations more from them. So it was that same year, both the Pope and the King died. What was popularly taken as "the curse of Friday the 13th," related to heretics, witches, and many others who cursed the ecclesiastical and monarchical state.
_I: So it was a tragic day, but it turned out to be a seed for the liberation of the people... So it could almost be a day of good democratic omen... Right?
_AM: Well... Yes. All traditions that many uphold today stem from a negative view of the world by the Church and the Monarchy.
_I: The other day I read a comment saying that we are working for the satanic religion, and it gave all its explanations that the world belongs to the devil because the atoms of life have a base of 6 particles, so our composition is 666, and that by worshiping matter and the Earth we are worshiping the devil, and that we are surely working for the religion. I had never read so much inconsistency together, as it said that we are religious when its arguments use all the same discourses of Christianity.
_AM: It's a matter of habit. Europe has been Christian for about 1700 years, which turned the world into a Christian one during colonialism, for the last 500 years. We could say that 80% of humanity has or had a Christian relative or ancestor, and therefore comes from a Christian tradition or religious environment. This is not just a religious thing, as religion adapts to culture, and becomes tradition. Like people who celebrate Christmas, Easter, the Three Kings, and don't believe in any of that.
_I: We live in a futuristic world with medieval traditions...
_AM: Smells musty, doesn't it?
_I: Quite...
_AM: Does it bother you then?
_I: Well... I have to confess that yes... I'm bothered by the hypocrisy of a humanity that criticizes using the same tools they criticize with. Like what I mentioned, being anti-religious but believing in evil and the devil. Or speaking of love and being one with everyone but saying that we must eliminate religious or political leaders. Or those who seek harmony, freedom, and spirituality outside of religions, but blame and turn the same enemies of religion they deny into enemies, such as the Freemasons, the Illuminati, the reptilians... I mean, I don't know, no matter how much we evolve in form, the essence still remains the same, it still smells old...
_AM: Rancid...
_I: Yes...
_AM: Do you know what word comes from "rancid"?
_I: Which one?
_AM: Resentment.
_I: Why is that?
_AM: Resentment comes from the word "rancere," and it refers to smelling bad, something that is old, past, and starts to generate an odor that is uncomfortable, rotten. Latin writers coined the concept of "resentment" to refer to an idea or circumstance that smells bad, that smells of the past, of old and rotten. In English, the word resentment also comes from Latin, "resentment" means "to feel again," something that returns over and over again to be perceived by the senses, something old that is felt again, in this case, as the Spanish specifies, through smell.
_I: Smell, which is related to the third eye...
_AM: Let's analyze. What my eyes see and my ears hear have the same center of information: the brain's nucleus, in the pineal and pituitary glands. But there's a third one that goes directly to both glands, smell, which perceives the invisible. Remember that breathing (spirare), gives rise to the word spirit. Therefore, what the soul and the spirit perceive is related to smell. That's how intuition is called "having a good nose," or when you sense something negative you suggest "this smells bad," just as when a plan seems promising you say "this smells good." Smell is related to intuitive memory, and that's why the best way to treat emotions that discomfort the soul is through aromatherapy. When one gets sick, they usually lose their sense of smell and their lungs often fail...
_I: Like now with COVID-19...
_AM: ...That indicates that the system has stopped and has lost the spiritual connection, the ability to perceive, and needs to regenerate again. When you smell nothing, your spirit has disconnected, you need strong smells to awaken your sensory ability again and for your spirit to light up in you again. Now, when you only smell ugly things, your brain is reminding you that there are rotten things around you, you need to clean the environment of negative energy. It could be said that many environments are charged with energetic resentment, which does not come from the human emotional plane, but from a vibrational density that must be transformed for new airs to flow better.
_I: And what about the resentment that every human knows? I have two of my best friends who boast that their resentment is the greatest of their virtues as well as defects. Why would it be a virtue and why a defect?
_AM: As I mentioned before, the brain's center receives information from the words it hears and the situations it sees. Hearing and Vision. Every person you interact with in life will send you signals, electrical pulses that will be recorded by your brain, by the hypothalamus, into positive and negative signals. In this recording, the data becomes magnetic pulses that affect the chakras, and from them to the hormones of the glands. This translates words and situations into emotions and feelings within our body. In this way, the brain already has more tools to identify people or circumstances and know how to respond to similar situations. We've talked about this, it's to save time processing similar things. So, if a new, different person arouses the same emotion in me, the brain will look in the previous files related to that same emotion and open them up to me to know how to act.
_I: That's why sometimes when meeting someone we tend to say: "they remind me of so-and-so...".
_AM: Exactly. And you will even start to compare, to know if you should act in tune with what you feel or not. The mechanism that is activated to identify if that is or is not the same emotion is called Smell. A keen sense of smell will not only smell aromas but energies. The most emotional people have a greater sense of smell because they have more internal records. Thus, smell allows you to anticipate situations before they happen, reading, smelling rather, in the environment the similarities with previous data. When what is about to happen tends to be negative, smell awakens the old smells that warn the Sympathetic system from the Parasympathetic system that one must react based on that old rotten smell, and thus, Resentment is awakened.
_I: Wow...
_AM: Resentment is the sharpness of the olfactory system inside our brain that is capable of identifying old, dirty, painful, annoying, and uncomfortable situations quickly, awakening the elephant memory, remembering every situation, the hows, the whats, the whys, the whos, the wheres, all the data to the fundamental questions. Resentment is a useful system to prevent similar situations, to be alert and defend oneself from external dangers.
_I: But...
_AM: There's always a but. There's resentment as a prevention method, and resentment as a way of life. I'll put it in simple terms: resentment as a prevention method is like having sex with a condom, to protect yourself from possible diseases. Resentment as a way of life is considering that having sex is what makes you sick, so dying a virgin.
_I: Clear example.
_AM: I thought so.
_I: So what you're trying to say is that people who live by resentment are always suspicious and foul-faced towards everyone, refusing to establish contact with new people in case the same thing happens as before. It's like deciding just what you said, not to have any kind of relationship with anyone else because everything is seen as a possible stinky reflection.
_AM: On the other hand, resentment used as a biological skill is what helps you not to stumble twice over the same stone, to foresee situations, to be intuitive, but not closed to what will come.
_I: You know? I realize now that many of the closest people I have are very resentful, but precisely because I don't have resentment, and I need them. These people often tell me that sometimes it's even annoying to see that I don't learn the lesson and always fall back into the same patterns in relationships with people. Sometimes I thought that not having resentment, that having the natural ability to forgive, made me a better person, but precisely it's what always brought me the same problems. When I learned to listen to my resentful close ones, I was able to forgive but respecting and taking care of myself, knowing how to set boundaries. This made me lose friendships, but I realized something important, that I gained freedom. Before, I lived for those friendships, and they hurt me just as I hurt them, forcing through forgiveness and gratitude a bond that needed to be released in order to grow. If it weren't for the resentment of those close to me, I would never have understood it. But still, I know that many of these resentful people are also very closed to new opportunities and live in past situations...
_AM: Everything in the universe is a tool. If life gives you a hammer, you must learn to drive nails, not to hit others on the head.
_I: It's clear, the problem isn't the hammer, it's what I do with it. So, Resentment is the useful Scorpionic olfactory sense for working with Piscean intuition and living in a Cancerian security. But if I cling to the past, resentment will become my worst enemy, preventing me from moving forward and transforming.
_AM: Therefore, if life gives you lemons...
_I: ...Make lemonade.
_AM: If life gives you resentments...
_I: ...Make a good perfume.