Loves
_I: If Love (Amor) means “without death” in Latin, that is, it is something eternal, and we all know that what is eternal is energy, then it is constantly transformed without ending. So, love is an energy, the energy that eternally runs through and builds everything. Therefore, love has many forms, and one can love in different ways, right?
_AM: Clearly, love is that eternal energy that originates and shapes everything. From the first pulse of the Universe, eternal energy is what is transformed over and over again: from waves to strings, from strings to quantum, from quantum to particles, and these into atoms, and so into molecules, and these into chemical elements. , and the elements in acids that make up the genetic codes, and are protected in the plasma of a cell, which multiplies until it becomes an organ, then an organism, a body, then an entity, and from there to a being. That is to say, everything is Love, since everything is eternal energy. And the energy vibrates, like music, in different tunes. The strings of time that build the basis of the entire energetic connection are like the strings of a piano, guitar or harp, which, depending on their thickness, tension or length, will sound higher or lower, generating the energetic variety that you hear as music when they are all combined. For a beautiful song to have the expected effect, it needs rhythms, beats, moments of tension and resolution. This leads us to understand that the song we call Love will have different notes, some deep and dense, and others subtle and sharp. This scale, in humans, is found throughout the body, as if you were a guitar with strings that run through your entire body from your feet to your head, and the string tensioners are found in each of the chakras. Thus, the shorter and thicker the string, the lower and denser it will sound, generating lower emotions. And the longer and sharper it sounds, the higher your emotions will be. But they all make the song.
_I: So it could be understood that Hate is not the opposite of Love, but rather one of its many notes, the most serious of all.
_AM: When you listen to a song, the low notes are the ones that take you inward, to see what has not been worked on, to the tension that lives in you. Hate is one of those tensions, and Happiness is the resolution of this musical tension. But they both create the song. Therefore, the only thing that allows you to enjoy and hear the beautiful melody is Unconditional Love, because you can see the logic and beauty in each process, in each note without judging it.
_I: This would justify all types of love, that is: are obsessive loves okay? Jealousy? Or the typical “I hit you because I love you” of machismo?
_AM: It is not a question of what is right and what is wrong. It's a matter of tuning the strings. An out-of-tune instrument only generates noise, disharmony. The mistake is thinking that happiness is good, believing that sadness is bad. No. There is no emotion in the universe that is bad, nor any form of love that is correct, there are only out-of-tune instruments that need adjustment of the strings. Hate is very useful when it is channeled, as it generates the necessary tension that drives an energetic discharge that seeks the release of said tension. Hatred of oppression seeks freedom as a result; hatred of war, seeks peace as a result. However, in the human vocabulary, you have polarized emotions as if they were concepts and not energies. It's like saying that, according to my moral belief, I will only use cells and batteries that have the positive side because I don't like the negative side or it doesn't agree with my scale of values... I don't know if you understand electricity, but you will never get light from a battery. which has two positive sides.
_I: I get the point. Both, negative and positive, are useful for enlightenment, the problem is not knowing how to tune it, adjust it, and that involves how I use the chakras... Which are the motors or the pegs of a guitar...
_AM: By adjusting your chakras like the strings of a guitar, that is, arranging the energy in them, making them rotate correctly and in harmony with the others, you will be able to make the negative strings sound to be useful in your loving melody. Unconditionality means “without conditions”, and sometimes, people tend not to realize what this means, and they believe that Unconditional is something very idyllic in which the negative is rejected and one lives in a world of peace, brotherhood and utopia. However, it is very different, it implies precisely recognizing the usefulness, even of that which is negative and dark, and lovingly understanding that whoever is out of tune is because they have not been able to adjust their chakras, their chords, not because they are bad. Perhaps, in your life, you have experienced situations that have thrown the pins out of whack, and that is why your form of love is out of harmony, believing that hitting is love, that dominating is love, that overprotecting is love, that controlling is love, that being jealous is love. …
_I: So, the proposal is to help adjust the inner world so that that love is useful.
_AM: All existing emotions are useful, all of them. And all of them arise from eternal energy, that is, Love. Do you understand why it is said that “God is Love”, and that “the Universe is Love” or “only Love will set you free”, or “Everything What you need is Love”?
_I: Yes, because love does not mean being in love, but rather being eternal, unlimited. And in fact, that's what it feels like when you fall in love, you feel that there are no limits, that you can do anything.
_AM: Because all emotions coexist there. The most important are those that have been recorded in each cell as survival mechanisms on earth: Joy, Anger, Fear, Sadness, Surprise, Disgust, Trust, Interest. And then, from them, come Shame, Guilt, Embarrassment, Satisfaction, Contempt, Enthusiasm, Complacency, Pride, Pleasure. And all of the above go from being reactions to constant states, something you call “Feelings”, such as Generosity, Joy, Affection, Jubilee, Compassion, Hope, Freedom, Gratitude, Acceptance, Accompaniment, Kindness, Admiration, Benevolence, Kindness, Relief , Empathy, Integrity, Harmony, Attachment, Approval, Honesty, Humility, Concentration, Temperance, Tolerance, Motivation, Happiness, Strength, Autonomy, Serenity, Optimism, Satisfaction, Security and Love itself. We will talk about all of them sooner or later, no you hurry up
_I: And... So, I must ensure that all of this coexists in me harmoniously, without judgments... Well, Unconditional Love contains them and needs all of them to create its melody.
_AM: They are the different loves that coexist in your heart, which is the Rosette of the Guitar, where the great resonance occurs, where the bass and tensions, the treble and resolutions, combine.
_I: Is this why we tend to fall deeply in love with things that cause us conflict? That is to say, great love stories are usually the ones that must overcome all kinds of obstacles and conflicts... “Romeo and Juliet” for example, although it is applicable to almost all stories.
_AM: Exactly. All of this coexists in you, all those sensations are there, they are your strings, but, you are the guitar, the piano, the harp. The musician is usually the other, the one who appears in your life, and he plays your strings. That person, that being, is the one who will make you see what sounds in you and the adjustments or imbalances in your strings. Humans often think that they feel a certain emotion because of another person's grace or guilt. However, that emotion lives in me, and it is out of tune or in tune in me, the other just touched the string, making it sound, and showing me how I sound. But it's me who sounds bad, not the other one. The resonant reaction is in me, not in the other.
_I: Well, although the other also has to know where to play... For some reason he chose to play that string and not another...
_AM: Resonance is everything. What the other plays in me only makes what is in me sound, but at the same time, it makes what the other needed to hear and was not hearing in himself. The musician does not play the song with deaf ears, but rather hoping to get something out of it. It is an energetic symbiosis which, through relationships, seeks to improve, feel harmony, and find unconditional love. And to do this, first, both the musician and the instrument must recognize all their sounds, their emotions, and the number of melodies they are capable of creating. But above all, free yourself from your role, since many people believe that they are other people's instruments, and many believe that they are the musicians who use the instruments at their mercy. They are both instruments and musicians at the same time.
_I: And how do I become a good musician?
_AM: Playing your own instrument and feeling its resonance in your heart. The music you can make of yourself. It is much easier to blame others, those who pull the strings, than to see that one can provoke emotions on oneself. Look in the mirror, recognize that everything I don't like is just the music that emerges from me and filters what I hear from the world; It is not something easy, it implies accepting ourselves as the generators of our own conflicts. What does not resonate, what is out of tune, what is out of tune, is in my being, is my music, and no musician wants to discover that the orchestra's problem was his own instrument. That is why we throw the good and the bad on others.
_I: That's why we say things like "without that person I am nothing", or, "I need him or her", "I hate him", "my problems would disappear if he or she disappeared from my life...". All those things that we project onto the other are nothing more than our own imbalances, which the other only allows us to hear.
_AM: The belief that we need others to be who we are; the belief that it is the other who produces this or that emotion in me, and that it is only because of the other that I can feel complete or empty.
_I: What is it to fall in love then? I'm referring to that feeling we feel in our hearts, as if it were going to explode.
_AM: This happens when an external agent, be it a situation, a person, an epiphany or revelation, rings all our emotions at the same moment, and everything, from the lowest to the highest of our being, rings in unison. . This generates a reaction that neutralizes everything that was separated, and makes it unified, but at the same time, you cannot feel anything, because you feel everything at the same time. But falling in love is only an instant, because then the strings begin to sound in resonance with the others, generating conflicts and tensions and then culminating in resolutions. Love is like a sea, full of waves with peaks and depths, rises and falls. It's the only way things can be eternal: if they transform. Think now of all the people you have managed to love, in every sense, those you have loved deeply, with whom you have felt greater friendship, with whom you have fallen in love, with whom you feel like family, with whom you feel like partners, or lovers; Think about all those who have moved your heart... And tell me, have you managed to maintain that feeling constantly?
_I: …No… It has always been modified; turned into hate, or betrayal, or disappointment, or anguish... Or from love to friendship, from passion to relationship, from friendship to lover... It never remains static.
_AM: Because of the wave. You can't go against the sea, but you can learn to swim in it. Wanting to dominate the sea is selfish, learning to swim is Unconditional Love. For a sea without waves does not take any ship to its destination. Knowing that the forms of love will always change, you cannot cling to any of them, since they will all inevitably transform, so all you have to do is accept it as it is. And by accepting it, you know that the waves do not rise and then go down and never rise again, but they return, they return to the surface. When, instead of seeing a rise and fall, you see the horizon of the sea and the millions of waves on it, you will be able to understand what acceptance, empathy, unconditionality means, understanding that love is water.
_I: In a way, it is liberating, because it allows us to see everything with love, so that our heart can resonate without expectations, without wanting to get attached to the sensation...
_AM: And yet… You are.
_I: How?
_AM: Attached… To an expectation. That cough you have, it's not coming from your throat, is it?
_I: …No… It's true… It comes from the heart, from the High Heart.
_AM: You feel the pressure in your chest...
_I: It's like all the strings have gotten knotted there and can't sound as expected.
_AM: Tell me… Who was the musician who broke your heart?
_I: You know the story. When Merlin, in Avebury, England, told me that I could only fulfill my mission and purpose if I managed to abandon both for love, allowing myself to fall in love with nothingness, with emptiness, he told me that I would do so only by going to the Heart, to Switzerland. And so it was, after 2 weeks I went to Switzerland, and when I arrived I met him, or rather, I remembered him. Seeing each other, it was like having found that other part of me, we both felt it. I had never felt like this before… When I saw him, I had the feeling of saying “thank you for showing up, I'm glad you're here again.” Later that same day, he told me that he was in love with me, but that he knew that I could never feel anything for him, because he was Nothing, nobody, he was empty. And then, his words were Merlin's, and something in me made me understand what he felt. He had never fallen in love with anyone this way. The next day, I had to go to Stockholm to present an Ontocracy project in a Foundation, my life purpose... And already at the airport I decided not to get on the plane, to leave the airport and stay with him, there, in Geneva, in Switzerland, the heart of Europe, which is the heart of the world, activating my own heart next to yours, in a town in the center of CERN, the particle accelerator. But that same week, his family, from loving me, began to hate me, and they forbade us to be together, they turned him against me, making him believe lies, and I was never able to see him again. He disappeared from my life. Over time I understood that his love, his presence, embodied all that love that he should feel for myself. However, since then, 2 years ago, I have felt something that I never believed was true: a thorn in my heart...
_AM: Tell me how you feel...
_I: It's as if nothing made sense, as if all the emotions of my life led me to him, because with him I felt all, absolutely all the emotions that I could feel with someone from the lowest to the highest. And like the very Nothing he claimed to be, he disappeared without even saying goodbye.
_AM: Your heart was left in a state of tension, unable to reach resolution. But you know well that every person in the external world is only a projection of the internal world. Without it you would not have discovered love as you did, you would not have known that you were capable of freeing yourself from your history and your mission, you realized that you are truly free, and then you have made it a conscious choice rather than a duty and a weigh. You have allowed yourself to love all people without limits, and you have understood the strength of pain, transforming it into teaching. His love did not disappear, it lives in you, he showed you what you are capable of when you love, the melody of your heart.
_I: Still, my heart needs to close this story, which is the most open of all the ones in me today. It still hurts, and it's the words I couldn't say to him that make me cough from my high heart.
_AM: First you must be able to say them to yourself, and then you will find it to say them to him. For every great path of love does not begin by giving oneself to the other, but by giving oneself, allowing oneself to hear one's own melody.
_I: I don't know how to do it. My projection of what we could have been together is so great that my heart continues to beat about an idea that no longer exists...
_AM: And you're still hoping that talking about him will one day let him know that you're still waiting for his return. And the truth is, my dear friend, he won't. Well, whoever you hope will return, he lives in your memories and your expectations of what could be, and not what is. What you hope will return, he already lives inside you. And as long as your song sounds like “what it could have been,” it will never be what “it is.” Therefore, in Love, we should not expect anything from anyone, but rather Be what we hope to receive. Love yourself, and you will only receive love.
_I: I will do everything in my power to make my strings sound again...
_AM: There is not much you have to do, it is simply to love him, because the idea you have of him does not live in him, but within you. All humans project onto others what lives inside you, and you cry at the other's inability to give you what was always already in your internal worlds. Learn to give yourself what you expect from others, and then you will receive the consistency of others towards you, freely, without expectations, ideas or conditions. Attachment to the idea of what could be is one of the fundamental keys to let go in order to love, since the sea is a free spirit that cannot be locked in a chest.
_I: I will only say that the love that he awakened in me helped me realize that I had that love inside me, a love capable of going from nothing to everything in an instant, and back to nothing...
_AM: …To return again to the All.
_I: I honor what I feel, without judgment, because even today in its absence, it continues to remind me of the strength of love that is in my heart. I just have to feel it free and expanded. Free myself from attachment...
_AM: And to do this, you must allow yourself to love yourself as much as you love him. Let go of the expectation of your mission and your purpose, fall in love with Nothingness, fall in love with the Void that it has left in you, because its Love lives in you, because you...
_I: …I… I Am Love, and I bring it in me.