Guilt
_I: Today I woke up strangely upset, uncomfortable, and a little angry.
_AM: And do you know the origin of all this?
_I: I couldn't identify it. The feeling is like not knowing exactly what I feel. Lately, with the task we are doing, I feel like it's not me... I feel more sensitive than usual, but at the same time apathetic. You know well that my daily life is to move by my purpose, and since we started, my purpose is day by day, and not long term. I'm not thinking about what I should do in a month... Not even tomorrow. It's rare for me. And there is something inside me that this circumstance makes irritable. As if, knowing that I could give more of myself, I don't give it.
_AM: Not only are you attentive to what others expect of you, but you give a lot of importance to what you expect of yourself.
_I: Well, I believe that if we are here to be responsible for transforming ourselves and thus transforming the world, we have to be attentive to giving the best of ourselves.
_AM: The problem is when you still have nothing to give. What others receive from you today is not what you are giving, it is what you are showing to give to yourself.
_I: How?
_AM: This process we are experiencing is personal, and what you write here, what we talk about, is yours. And, by reflex, others receive, but you are not giving, you are only reflecting, because you still do not have what you have come to deliver... You must work on yourself first. And part of that dedication is reminding others that they must follow the same path.
_I: It takes a weight off me to know that I am not giving, but reflecting... Although at the same time it puts me in a place of comfort...
_AM: Conflict is the weight you have placed on yourself. The lack of your father in your childhood built the idea that the Universe is your father. Thus, the goals you set in your life are cosmic, not familial. By separating yourself from family conflicts, you sought a greater family, Humanity. Having lost your childhood home, you made Earth your home. Seeing the distortion of the Matrix system, you took on the task of correcting the knots of the Planetary Network. Seeing the closed doors in the hearts in your school, you decided to propose to open the Portals of the World educationally, and upon understanding that the conflict is in the use of systems, you proposed to teach about the systems of creation... And when you refused as a guide , you decided to aim to work for the Social Transformation of the future. Don't you see that every big decision you've made is a big, growing weight on your shoulders? You can barely hold your own body. How do you intend to perform such feats and feats if you created them to not see that the conflicts were much closer, in your personal life?
_I: Ouch... That hurt... I mean... Everything I do, I do it because we have agreed, because of the history I have lived, and because of the missions I have planned with all the beings I met... Why now tell me what it is? all an invention of mine to escape my own responsibility?
_AM: Oh, I didn't say it's an escape invention, I said you've gotten ahead of the facts. Everything is perfect, and your flaws and weaknesses are the keys to why your personality is useful for your planetary mission. Your greatest weaknesses are your greatest strengths. And therefore, it is necessary to work on them. What you do is show the world your inner work, you are not here to be a teacher, but a mirror. You are not there to sit in a Chair and give life lessons, you are there to be a traveling companion.
_I: …Yes… I feel like I want to give more than I can…
_AM: And you give what you must give. The weight you carry on your back is yours alone. Nobody forces you to take on such responsibility, it's just your choice. All the beings you know only give you tasks, missions, steps to follow, tools, only because you told them you could do it, not because it was imposed on you. Each one chooses his own destination, each one chooses his path, each one puts together his own bag carrying what he considered he needed on the trip and must take to his objective. The others are there, in each dimension, to help you and me, I and I AM, to achieve the goal we have set for ourselves. And I am part of this traveler that is you.
_I: The weight, sometimes, makes my knees bend, almost in a feeling of resignation, of resignation... Before it didn't affect me as much as it does now... Well, before I only counted what I remembered, and now, I have to tell where I'm going... And that is very different.
_AM: Why do you think it is different?
_I: Because telling the past and what one remembers cannot be changed, it simply is, it is a record, data, which may be right or wrong, right or wrong, but they are simply my perspectives of what I experienced. It's like, for example, when I was a child, and my mother was arguing with her uncle about buying the house after my grandfather died, and I was crying because my bunny had died. That moment, today, I remember with a lot of weight in my soul, because I feel like I didn't do anything, that I only took my mother out of the spotlight. But at the same time, I know that I was only 9 years old, I couldn't do anything, and even more so, I didn't understand anything that was happening. I only remember the pain that that rabbit had died, and I remember that the family was in the dining room, arguing. Nothing else…
_AM: Therefore, you cannot judge yourself for not understanding, for not seeing that other part...
_I: And yet, in a way, I do. And when I put my all into buying a house, it was for that moment. Sometimes it is those circumstances that define our present. What happened, just happened, is what I saw, I could simply see the rabbit, no one can judge me for that, but I can judge myself for what I am going to do. Once I become aware of what happened, my future action is judgeable, since now I am responsible, and I must act accordingly. Thus, the future is more terrifying, because each step I take now depends on my intention, and not on what happens in the environment.
_AM: The Guilt…
_I: In what sense?
_AM: Guilt is the concept of failing, of not doing something well. Normally today it is related to the fact of doing something wrong, saying something inappropriate, or acting outside of what is established, committing an error that should be punishable. However, the oldest concept of Guilt is not related to wrongdoing, but to ignorance at the time of the action. Humans are moved by guilt, they react in their lives through guilt, as a way of intention, of trying to find harmony. “It was my fault, and therefore I must fix it.” This generates enormous weight, which bends your body. And that weight weakens the pillars that support your integrity: your legs.
_I: Yes, I feel guilty. I never thought I would feel guilt. And the truth is that it is because of what I told you... Before I didn't feel guilt, because I couldn't feel guilt about things that had happened, that I had experienced. I cannot feel guilt for what I am, the product of a spiritual, soulful and biological history. When I dedicated myself to explaining what I remember, what I learned in my lives, I felt free of guilt, I only felt a very great responsibility to continue with what I could not continue so long ago, knowing that now the time had come to resume what unfinished, the reconnection of the Network. But this life offers me a new challenge... At the end of closing what I left incomplete 12,000 years ago, that is, at the closing of this cycle in 2022, I must begin to build the future. And in a way, it is a new way for me, since it involves giving my opinion about the present. And giving an opinion is like seeing only the rabbit, it is impossible to be neutral. Sometimes it happens to me that when trying to talk about what we should do today and in the future, I cannot leave aside what I observe about the world.
_AM: And that is inevitable, since you only have two eyes, and you occupy only one place in space being who you are. The world, then, will be seen from your point of view.
_I: But I can talk to you, and with other beings who offer me greater neutrality.
_AM: But that doesn't mean you will be neutral. A ship cannot set sail in all directions at once in this dimension. You are in the Third Dimension, and here you have to decide a destination. We, from other dimensions, are the radars and control towers that help guide, knowing where the routes are, the storms, the other ships... But it is you who sets the destination, who has the controls of the ship. You are the captain, not us, and therefore, it is we who have to guide you in your decisions, not ours. There is your freedom.
_I: And the crew… What?
_AM: They decided to get on the boat. Nobody has forced them.
_I: Still, I feel responsible.
_AM: You should feel responsible, but not the weight of guilt. Because you can only choose one destination, you can only take into account certain factors, and not all. On your journey, you will go through certain circumstances that do not happen in other seas, oceans, islands... And that does not discredit your navigation. Each ship has its own route, and they all share the oceans, the water. There is no ship that can touch all destinations in the same trip.
_I: That's what makes me feel guilty... Believing that I am leading everyone only to my destiny, from my point of view. How do I stay neutral?
AM: The ship is not neutral when it sails to its goal, the ship is neutral when in the port it tells everyone: “Our journey will be this way, and with this destination, if you look for another, there are many more ships, they will all be useful for navigation.”
_I: I understand, I mean, I waste too much time blaming myself for sharing my vision, when I just have to say: this is my vision, but there are many more...
_AM: Guilt is a feeling of those who act with unconsciousness, and here you are openly demonstrating your unconsciousness. The lack of ignorance of the other paths, the other paths, does not make you ignorant, what makes you ignorant is believing that you do not take them into account. It is because of these things that you feel misplaced in the matter. You are accustomed to seeing the All, and in this life, you were asked to take into account the All, choose a path.
_I: It terrifies me, because if there's one thing humans usually do, it's name and label paths. Speaking of the future, it will be very easy for you to try to find the word that defines what I will say: communist, neoliberal, illuminati, guru, “smoke seller,” and so many other connotations.
_AM: And you will never be free from the connotations of others, because others have eyes and perspectives. Everyone will always judge you for what you do, decide or think, for every step, for every breath, there will always be a critic from their point of view. But it is your decision to be free of them. The conscious is free from criticism, and he takes them as suggestions that nourish his ability to transform. The unconscious takes them as a criticism and personal battle, entering into the game of “who is right.”
_I: I've been very unconscious lately. Trying to excuse myself from what I say, reacting to other people's opinions, but today I realized that it was not out of anger, but out of guilt. I feel that if someone doesn't understand me, it's my fault, for not knowing how to express myself well. That if someone tells me that I don't know something, it's my fault for not having studied more to know it. That if someone doesn't like me, it's my fault for not being more open. That if they suggest I do things differently, it's my fault for not knowing how... And this brings me to my own family. I feel that the problems that have recently separated my family are all my fault, for living in a world of dreams and missions without realizing the needs of others. Or their points of view... I feel that the fact that I have lost many people in my life was only my fault, for not having put myself in their place before my time, for not thinking about everyone as I should... And I am afraid of doing the same. with everyone, that I don't do it well, that I don't explain myself well, that I don't get to fulfill my tasks and many feel disappointed, or I even feel guilty before the moment in which I have to start giving my opinion about the current world and the future , in which many will surely disagree... What should I expect...?
_AM: Every person who seeks consciousness on Earth asks the same question. How to be accepted when I tell my truth? Will they understand me? And here is the great challenge: understanding that you are all human, and that error is the key to your growth and learning. Consciousness encourages recognizing trial and error as part of expansion, understanding that each human is a perspective. Unconsciousness is shown from closed positions, in phrases like “I disagree”, “it is not like that”, since all the phrases put from negativity and in opposition, defend a position. In each conflict there are two perspectives, and both must respond with phrases such as “according to my vision”, “From my perspective”, “I believe…”, “I know that…”. In this way we can build, not by discrediting the other, but by building from visions. Thus, you will understand that no one is to blame for anything, because everyone needs to put themselves in each other's shoes. It takes two perspectives to generate a conflict, not just one. What one provokes generates noise in another, awakening its distortions. But, as long as we stop seeing the fault in one or the other, to see the visions in each other, reconstructing the fact from a broader perspective, we will be able to understand that everyone was right. They simply couldn't see each other's reason. Guilt is an unnecessary weight that humans carry and that has no productivity. To identify guilt about a fault, first identify your awareness of it. Don't be afraid to give your opinion, as long as it is recognizing that the other views are not against you, but in their favor.
_I: There is no meaning, then, in guilt, in the same way that a child cannot have responsibility or blame for his family's conflicts, as long as he ignores or is unconscious of a fact.
_AM: Nobody is born knowing everything, and the greatest sign of coherence is recognizing that most of reality is unknown.
_I: “I only know that I know nothing”…
_AM: Recognize in guilt your great lack of awareness about your responsibility. Being responsible is not doing what others and the world expect of you; It is giving the most of yourself to the world. “Don't ask Elm for Pears”, they often say…
_I: Yes, I understand... The great responsibility is to discover what I have to give from my humble perspective, what I can share about myself, and offer the world from my vision, taking the faults, deficiencies, errors, criticisms, as a way to nurture my growth. It is true that one cannot know everything, but one can learn...
_AM: We have all come to learn. He who expects someone to know everything cannot be a great teacher.
_I: I remember when the teachers got angry in class because we didn't know something. It was paradoxical that instead of wanting to teach us, or worrying about why we didn't understand it, they got angry because we didn't know.
_AM: And what kind of teacher are you?
_I: Well… Now that I think about it, honestly, yes. It bothers me a lot when people ask questions that seem obvious to me...
_AM: There are no obvious questions. Whoever asks a question, it is because he does not know the answer. Tell me, can you give me the gravitational mass of the Sun ?
_I: No…
_AM: For an astrophysicist the answer would be easy.
_I: I understand the point… But that doesn't mean I have to answer them all…
_AM: No, of course not. However, that does not mean that it does not seem obvious to you, just as the answer that you did not know seemed obvious to a teacher in class. You can help the student find the answer on their own, without having to give them the answer or belittling the question.
_I: Yes, I understand... These are things that surely happen to many of us, because we feel pressured... Or conditioned by the learning method.
_AM: People always position themselves in one place or another: the one who knows and the one who does not know, the one who knows and the one who ignores. Guilt is part of the lack of knowledge and ignorance, because by not knowing, it does not respond, or it fails, it errs in its attempt. It is necessary, therefore, on the part of the teacher, to help the student find the way to do it. And the key to achieving this is recognizing that we are all searching, we are all learning. You cannot blame yourself or others for what is unknown or unknown.
_I: I must, therefore, value what I am capable of giving to others, and honestly learn from what I do not understand as long as it is within my reach.
_AM: You don't need to know everything to know, you don't need to prove anything to anyone. Today society has made knowledge a burden and ignorance a way of life. The challenge lies in accepting ignorance as a natural state capable of evolving through learning, and knowledge as enrichment along the way. No one is guilty if they don't understand why.
_I: And what happens to those who do bad things knowing that they are bad? Like corruption, murders, rapes, etc.
_AM: It is also the fault of the ignorant. No one who destroys another's life or a common balance can be aware of what he is doing. Such an act cannot be defined as “Consciously performed”, but rather “unconsciously reacted”. Someone who disrupts order is someone who has become distorted, and who needs to find balance again. Relearn what you forgot.
_I: So guilt is just a personal perception, not an external fact. You cannot blame someone, you can only accept being guilty. Which comes as I feel unconscious of what I have done. And I free myself from guilt knowing that it was something I did not know, and that I must do better by learning new ways.
_AM: “Whoever is blameless, let him cast the first stone.”
_I: It is a good example for those of us who tend to criticize others without realizing our own shortcomings.
_AM: Every living being is in a learning process. Therefore, it is important to learn to respect other students. Don't feel guilty about what you didn't do or what you could have done, you did what you did with the tools you had at the time, and surely you would do it differently now. Don't worry.
_I: And in relation to the future?
_AM: You cannot ask for forgiveness for giving what comes from you. It is the decision of others to take or leave what you have to give. As long as it comes from your heart and coherence, you have nothing to lose, only to give and learn. Free yourself from what others believe or think about you, be yourself, and give what you can at every moment, and over time you will learn new things that will make you give new perspectives. It's called Grow. No one should be ashamed of growing up, no one can feel guilty about being a learner. One should feel proud to be a student of Life.
_I: Recognizing this takes weight off my body. My legs can relax, and my knees become flexible... Still, I get the feeling that being conscious and neutral is almost not having the right to omit an opinion, and there I find my dichotomy: how can you be neutral and express a personal opinion? at once?
_AM: Neutrality has a fundamental characteristic: acceptance. Neutrality is like the frivolous concept of what you call Unconditional Love. Being neutral does not mean having no opinion, but rather accepting the opinion of others. The mission of neutrality is to expose acceptance to different points of view, without being against any of them. Having a strong vision or perspective is not against being neutral, as long as you do not position yourself in the dual idea that yours is the only truth and the other is wrong. To be neutral is to have strong conviction, and an open heart to accept other convictions.
_I: Sometimes you could believe that to be neutral, you don't have to give an opinion or say anything; that being conscious is almost being a cloistered monk.
_AM: Being aware is knowing where you are going, being neutral is not being against anyone on that path. Being neutral is not feeding enemies, since they only exist in my points of view. The important thing about giving your opinion is that it becomes action, and it becomes a coherent fact.
_I: I free myself, then, from Guilt, to be neutral, accepting my ignorance and putting the will to learn along the way, without fear of giving my opinion, as long as it is impregnated with the responsibility of being consistent in actions. and the facts.
_AM: Only then will you be free from all guilt.
_I: And instead of throwing the stone, I will use it as the foundation to build a home where we can all live in harmony.
_AM: Recognize your unconsciousness, because it is the only way to true consciousness. Well, only by recognizing your weaknesses and learning, will you work on your strengths, becoming a teacher.
_I: I am Unconscious in many aspects of my life, and thus, I put all my intention and will to become a fully Conscious being.
_AM: Welcome to the Guilt-Free Life.