Forgiveness
_I: I just returned from the temple of Horus, in the Egyptian city of Edfu. At the beginning of 2019 I came to this temple with a group of 100 people, among whom there were some friends with me. We took a cruise, visiting the temples privately, where the priests and priestesses who still inhabit the temples between the fourth and fifth dimensions guided us in our initiation process. But one of the things I remember most about that trip is the number of times I had to ask for forgiveness from the custodians of each temple.
_AM: Why?
_I: Because many of the people seemed to have no idea what we were doing, and they often disrespected the task, acting like tourists. Among them, people who I thought were on the same page as me. I felt a lot of responsibility, and one of the Edfu priests pulled me aside and said a phrase that broke me into a thousand pieces.
_AM: “If you do not know how to choose correctly those who will accompany you in the planetary task, perhaps it is because we have not known how to choose well when we look for you for this mission.”
_I: When I heard this phrase, I gave up, the world fell on me. I thought that the decision had already been made, that I had demonstrated that I was incapable of carrying out this planetary task. I cried nonstop that day, and I realized I wasn't being coherent about anything. There were only a few months left to begin my planetary mission of YOSOY, and I was still wandering around, lost... I couldn't help but say over and over again “Shara, shara, shara” (I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry). Although the priest told _I: “Don't ask me for forgiveness, be responsible, and forgive.” So, I tried to understand that phrase, but it's not always clear to me what it means. Today I met him again between the columns, and I sat next to him, and he reminded _I: Eshar, Eshar, Eshar (Forgive, forgive, forgive).
_AM: Do you know what forgiveness is?
_I: I guess that's what we ask for when we do something wrong, and when someone does something wrong to us, we ask for forgiveness.
_AM: And what is forgiveness? Why do you ask him?
_I: To free myself…
_AM: So do you know what it means? Every time you ask for forgiveness, or say sorry, what are you asking for?
_I: Ugh, I don't know. That is, we usually say sorry, I think, without knowing why. Maybe what we are looking for is to stop feeling guilty, and the word forgiveness encompasses the feeling of guilt, so it is like letting go of the guilt of something... We ask that the weight of guilt be lifted from us.
_AM: “Forgive”, comes from the Latin “per” (for) and “donare” (give). In English, it has the same etymology and construction: forgive = for (for) and give (give). When you ask for forgiveness, you are asking the other to let go, to let go, to give what he is holding in his hands, and when you forgive, you are the one who lets go of what you are holding on to with your own hands. What we cling to is the emotion of pain, weight, anguish, grief, sadness, anger or helplessness that a situation or attitude reflects to us. When someone hurts us, the energy of pain, complaint, frustration or anger awakens in us, and if we do not release it and let it go, then we become attached to this emotion, turning it into resentment, part of our cellular information. , damaging our body. Forgiveness is the act of releasing that emotion that is stuck in us, produced by the attitude of others.
_I: I mean, let's see if I understood correctly. When I forgive, I am not releasing the other from their regret, but myself. Is that?
_AM: That's right. Every emotion you feel in your life lives only in you, and is fueled by your own perception of facts. You are the only origin and end of the energy of your being, since all energy is mobilized in you in a toroidal manner. What comes out of you comes back to you. And if you don't let it go, if you don't allow the energy to spread, it comes back to you again and again. This does not renew the flow and accumulates tension, so it begins to become a negative charge. But not a charge in the sense of weight, but a charge in the sense of electrical conductivity. When a sum of negative energies accumulates, there is no balance in the circulation, and this dirtyes all the filters of the being, accumulating energy that it does not generate. In this way, energy is constantly received, and never given. Receive comes from the Latin “re” and “capere”, meaning to grab again, to capture, again and again. This accumulates energy, which if not released, transforms into an energetic tumor, which will end up being a low emotion, such as anger, rage, anguish; producing attachment, that is, clinging to said emotions, ideas or attitudes. And in the long term they can become a disease, something that stops the flow of life completely (in-fermo = from the Latin “stopped”). In this way you can understand that it is you yourself who cyclically feeds the emotions in relation to what has happened. In order to release tension and allow flow, circulation again, you have to deliver that energy, release what you can of it so that there is mobility, transformation. That energy of excess is there “to give itself” to the world, to surrender. When I manage to give this excess energy to the world, to the environment, that is when I am truly forgiving.
_I: I understand, because sometimes we tend to think that the word Forgiveness is enough to solve a problem, as if saying: “I forgive you, or forgive me,” were magic words that, when heard from the mouth of the other, would solve the conflict by doing so. disappear like the invocation of a spell. When in reality, what happens is that I do not free the other or myself by repeating it in a cultural or mental way, but rather the forgiveness does not become effective until I really give the energy. The question would be: how do I deliver it?
_AM: You have to let it out, release it, share, talk to the person in question, say what you feel, what happened, talk about it, debate it, and even release the tension by crying, screaming, getting angry, or hitting something hard, break something, release tension.
_I: But… Let's see if I understand. Isn't it very unspiritual for us to express rage, anger, cry, show instability?
_AM: How do you charge your computer battery?
_I: Ugh, another of those analogies that I don't know where you're going to come from... I charge it from the current, normally at 220 volts... I think.
_AM: Charging your computer and phone batteries allows you to see the light, connect to the world, do everything you do.
_I: Yes.
_AM: Now, instead of plugging in the battery, try sticking your fingers in and charging your heart.
_I: I would die.
_AM: Why? If it is the same energy, very useful for your daily life.
_I: Yes, but the problem is not the electricity but its use.
_AM: Aha! In other words, the problem is not the electric current that transmits electrons, but the irresponsibility of its use.
_I: I guess so.
_AM: Therefore, you will understand that love and anger, frustration and joy, are nothing more than energies, which need positive or negative polarities to generate conductivity. Well, without both, light does not move. You will understand, then, that emotions, whether they seem bad or good, are simply energy, and it is the use you give them that will charge the battery so you can do your things, or destroy your heart. So don't judge emotion by your inability to use it.
_I: Wow… It's clear to me now.
_AM: A spiritual being has the same energy as a being that is not considered spiritual, and therefore, both have rage, anger, resentment, love, happiness, fulfillment, and all kinds of emotions. What really differentiates a being, whether spiritual or not, is the consciousness or unconsciousness in its use. There are many considered spiritual who do not know how to manage their emotions, and they control their life, because they interpret that to be spiritual you have to reject hatred or any type of low vibration. And this makes it bigger and more powerful, since they accumulate and are never expressed, making the reserve of this specific emotion grow. And there will come a day when it will explode. Thus, in order not to explode, the best remedy is the word: say what you don't like, what you don't like, what bothers you, what you feel, your points of view, communicate, say, express, let go, let the energy go. stuck that I repress out of fear, culture or spirituality; and by letting him go, I will feel more and more softness in the process, no longer needing anger, crying... And I will begin to be more neutral, only if I allow myself to give, let go, let go.
_I: Thus, Forgiveness becomes a personal liberation, which by sharing with others, releases the weight. But, how do you talk to others about what hurts without putting the weight on them, through crying, anger...
_AM: You can do it against a wall, but the effect will be much less. You should not be afraid to say what is happening to you, because by releasing it at that moment, you improve the interaction with the other person, instead of attacking them. If the other feels attacked or with the weight of what is shared, that is already the internal work of the other, because if it affects him, it is because it resonates in his being. You can only take charge of what you feel. The path to freedom from all physical sorrow is Forgiveness, which is not freeing the other from their error, but freeing yourself from the experimentation and pain of the conflict that has arisen. Letting go of the fruit or waiting for it, freeing yourself from the roots that oppress. Have you forgiven those who offended you? Well, the only one whose burden is heavy is you.
_I: It's true... Many times I have not forgiven, because I still feel the pain inside. I clung, I attached myself to the energy that I received, that I accumulated, and in the fear of letting go, of forgetting what happened, I remain tied to each event and circumstance of pain that I cannot forgive, let go. Beyond the fact that everyone says that I tend to forgive very easily those who have hurt me, more than I should, sometimes appearing foolish, I think this was due to the practice of letting go, letting go, forgiving in this sense. In practice I learned to free myself from the emotion, however, it remains there. How to differentiate the memory or record of what happened as part of my evolution as a being, from the concept of resentment?
_AM: Resentment is the memory that clings to the emotion of what happened, the memory clings to the information of why it happened. The first lives in constant emotionality, the second in the idea and mentality that seeks reasons and logic. If when thinking about an event the emotion is reborn again, you will know it as resentment; if when you see a past circumstance you analyze it, understanding the points of view, then it is memory. And the latter helps you evolve by transcending conflicts, while the former only makes you live the same conflict over and over again.
_I: For this reason, in order not to repeat it, it is necessary to forgive, and thus we free ourselves from the cycle.
_AM: When you ask for forgiveness, remember that you are not asking for it for yourself, but by asking for it, you seek to free the other from their regret, caused by your attitudes. By asking for forgiveness it is not you who frees yourself, but it is you recognizing that you must help the other to free themselves from their emotion. When you forgive, remember that it is not you freeing the other from their weight, but rather freeing yourself from your regret, sharing the emotional energy of what happened with those involved, and thus, collaborating in joint evolution through the integration of an experience that can have ended in a mistake. The vital energy, arising from the root chakra, the Kundalini, is the driving force of every energy circuit, and it is from there that the energy emerges or stagnates, where what is received is stored or what is forgiven is given. There is the energy that anchors the experiences, turning them into the seeds of a fruit. Remember, then, that the tree must release its fruits, let the seeds fall or fly, so that new plants can grow. Conscious sowing, letting the seeds go to generate something new, is the process of forgiving.
_I: Forgiveness is the key to the Sowing of conscious and free beings…
_AM: Remove the cultural and religious weight that you have placed on this word, and remember that forgiving and receiving are nothing more than the alternating currents of wiring in the world's network. If you learn to use them correctly...
_I: …The world will light up.
_AM: Are you ready to Forgive Me?
_I: Yes… I forgive you, because now I know that in this act, I forgive myself.
_AM: And this is how you surrender to eternal freedom. This is how the sowing of light begins.