Life and Death
_AM: Besides the garments that cover your senses, repressing who you are, limiting your potential, there is another way of stripping yourself that you must consider.
_I: Which one?
_AM: The garment of life. Your personality. Each life delivers a new garment to you, a new armor, a tool with which you will face the most hostile and friendly environments. But once you have used these garments, you must leave them, you must free yourself from them. Death thus becomes the liberation of your personality rags to give you the opportunity to start a new path.
_I: What is Life and what is Death?
_AM: "Life" arises from two Indo-European concepts adopted by the Greek and modified by Latin: "gwei" and "zwon," which give rise to "bios" and "zoon," meaning "alive" and "animal." To English (Life), Indo-European gave a more coherent word: "leip," which means "perseverance, continue, remain." Thus, both concepts would refer to the perseverance capacity of that which moves. "Death," in a certain way, means to remain, to dwell in a specific place, stationary; from Latin "mors - mori." Something that no longer moves and therefore remains still. In English, (Death), comes from the Indo-European "dheu," a concept of ending, of finishing. From the Universal point of view, life and death describe a Pattern, a path within the cosmic Matrix.
_I: How would that be?
_AM: When the Mental Universe decided to express itself, it did so by expanding what was within itself, in the concept of interior, of nucleus, outward to the external, to the periphery, expanding. Inside and Outside became two fundamental concepts for everything that would come afterward: the Law of Correspondence, of Vibration, of Rhythm, Cause-Effect, Polarity, and Generation, all would arise from the mental concept: Dream and Dreamer. All this conceptual duality began to spread through pulse and impulse, action and reaction, generating synapses in the cosmic mind, creating ideas, thoughts that expanded like a Consciousness Network on itself. But this network was based only on these two pulses. Call the first one point A and the second one point B. Between one and the other, there is a path. If A is expression and B is what it seeks to assimilate and understand about itself, then the line, the path that connects them will be Experience. Thus, by integrating at point B, it becomes the power for a new path of learning, Transcending the previous one by expressing itself again. Each journey between point A and point B is known as a Pattern, a word that comes from Latin and means "Protector," that is, that which limits and protects, delimits a space, time, or specific concept. The corresponding points between them are called Negative and Positive, Pulse and Impulse, Action and Reaction, Cause and Effect, Time and Space, Origin and End, Birth and Death. Therefore, life is a pattern, a limited concept of energy movement in which the universe experiences a new aspect of itself. Many patterns together and successive, configure the Matrix, that is, a womb of creation; from Latin "matrix" (womb, mother). Thus, each pattern is a life, and the matrix is the history of the soul, where hundreds of lives converge, and all together form the wisdom of being.
_I: So life and death are a single vector between "X" and "Y", but in reality, it is continuous. As in its etymology, a constant, permanence, in movement. Death really does not exist then, from the universal point of view.
_AM: Exactly. Each death is a new birth, and therefore, life does not exist either, because if each beginning of life is a death, all vectors converge on the same idea: to be born; and being born gives rise to the word Nothing. In the Universe, there is only manifestation from birth and constant expression. Therefore, the masters from their wisdom remind you: "Are you ready to die?".
_I: Those were the words of Merlin the day I had to cross the most difficult part of the Kora, the path around Kailash. When I set out to go to the mountain, I did it knowing that it would be a turning point in my life, because they had told me so. That mountain, for my life, represents death, the place of transformation. My guides told me that I had to do it to start a new path in my life, and so I did. I never would have thought that there I would meet the Druid, who accompanied me almost like a psychologist, asking me pointed questions. He confronted me with the death of all my loved ones, and how I would react to them. I realized that in many cases, we are more afraid of losing others than of the end of our own lives, because we are so connected to others that we have projected our own lives into our bonds with others. And if they die, it is as if a part of me dies. My grandmother was going through a tough cancer process, and on the mountain, I had to die in me for her, to help her transcend. Merlin made me write her a letter, telling her that I released her, and that I was willing to die for her, so that in my actions she could feel free. The morning of the crossing through the Dolma-La Pass, the highest and most difficult part of the journey, when I woke up, I saw Merlin's face in front of me saying with his old British accent "Are you ready to die?". His question made me nervous, but I also remembered that I had already died many times, only now I felt that I could control it, I could decide it myself, and not an external agent. I got up and told him yes. When I got there, the lack of oxygen and the cold made me feel like I was really dying, but in my mind, I could see myself in the Network, I could see all the masters, all the divinities, my ancestors, myself in each life, all like in a huge network of people sitting in the shape of a tetrahedron, fractally expanded in all directions. I had never felt so complete. "His voice repeated: all of them are you, and you are them...".
_AM: They are the garments you wear in each dimension, in each world... Which you will only inhabit when, by stripping yourself of all of them, you can become the totality from emptiness. From nothing. To be born.
_I: Death is something that scares us all, by nature, and yet, it is the most wonderful and orgasmic sensation one can feel, it is like fearing pleasure, fearing to be free.
_AM: The body was designed to experience and integrate, not to transcend. Transcendence is the task of the spirit and the soul, of letting go of the body, of freeing it from its experience, of making it expand everything it assimilated and accumulated for so long. To transcend is to educate matter to perform exactly the opposite of what it was designed for: to let go and let go. It is the body that fears death, for it is the end of its purpose, although when the spirit is present, it understands that it is also the beginning of a new one. Do you still fear death?
_I: I no longer fear death, but I am uncomfortable thinking about it happening to others around me, especially my mother. These days she has been in poor health, and although I feel immense stability, when the master in the pyramid asked me, "What are you willing to give if you are to experience death?", and I replied, "Anything of me, but not my mother." I realized in that instant that although I am more centered than ever, the idea of losing her still awakens my most human part. Then "you must set aside the human you show," he told me. Upon returning, my Instagram account had been hacked from Turkey, the head of the Earth's kundalini serpent. Basically, my Instagram was my face to the world through which I communicated with about 180,000 people every day. And that was lost. But, you know? Strangely, it didn't affect me. I understood what had happened. That morning, on the pyramid, I had decided to die myself, to let myself die in front of everyone, to disappear. To be Reborn. Nothing. Zero.
_AM: Deaths occur even while alive, for they are small great transformations which, if you take responsibility for them, you understand their transcendence. There are many deaths, mental, conceptual, physical, biological, emotional, energetic, and all of them confront us to discover a new part of ourselves. Dying is the Universe's gift to allow you to create a new reality. Life and Death are not enemies to each other. They are a continuum, they are the experience and integration of each mental, emotional, and physical process, an eternal cycle of energy that gives meaning to each pattern throughout the entire matrix.
_I: "Do not fear or deny destruction, for death and chaos are the universe's opportunity to generate order and a new life." Those were the words of Shiva's spirit on the mountain. Death is the great transformation that we all await but that, for fear of living it in life, we relegate ourselves to experiencing it through our death.
_AM: Are you ready to die?
_I: Yes, I am. For I am life and death in constant movement, always ready to be born again.