Apprehend
_I: To be all on the same page, then what is understood by “context”, as what surrounds us, is in truth what goes through us, conditions us and makes us what we are here and now from the personality and the ego; but at the same time, it is what we ourselves wove before living in this reality...
_AM: As I explained to you yesterday, the Universe arises from a single consciousness called The One Being, or Universal Being, summarized in the verb “I am”. By expressing itself in the 4 directions of Time (expression, experimentation, integration and transcendence) and the 4 of Space (tetrahedron, hexahedron, dodecahedron and icosahedron), the Being becomes the 8-legged spider of eternity, weaver of the Web. of the Cosmic Matrix. The fabric of her projects that potential in thousands of ways, and the different parts of her become entangled in the web that she herself wove. When the parts of her fabric are glued to it, they stop being weavers to be woven, and from that moment on, they become part of the context, of the textile ensemble of the cosmic spider. Being born is vibrating in this network, giving the sensation that the parts are flies, bees, or many other insects trapped in the network that you call the Matrix. Thus all the parts are interconnected with each other when entering the fabric of life, and if one vibrates, all the others will feel it. If each insect in the network is unaware of the others, the set of vibrations will be chaotic, and will lose meaning, direction, purpose; generating only confusion. This is what normally happens in life, in which the context that surrounds us is what conditions what we are, what we do, feel and think. We are at the mercy of the Grid of the Matrix, easy prey for the spider of time and space that will devour us in a cyclical wheel called Samsara, the wheel of karma. Wrapped in a labyrinth with no exit. The flies represent the different “I” that exist trapped in the contextual Network of the creative fabric. Normally, when the Egos realize that the Web is what conditions them, they consider themselves in a prison, seeing themselves as victims of the spider, and they seek to escape from it. However, if they all resonated in balance, they would all become the web, vibrating in unison, and remembering that they too can be the creative Spider.
_I: So as long as we do not resonate in harmony with the contextual fabric, remembering that we are not the spider but parts of it, the context will determine us.
_AM: Exactly. That is why it is important to know the tissues that make us up. To believe that each individual is the creator of his own reality is to ignore the functioning of the networks and the cosmic fabric of the spider of time and space. Everything that exists is inevitably connected, no one creates their own reality, but rather we all co-create the universe that surrounds us. The only way to weave realities in accordance with our own will is by recognizing and honoring the weaving, vibrating in harmony within it, in order to begin weaving. Nothing is separate, everything is part of one thing. Therefore, to consider that it is you, a simple SELF, capable of creating everything that surrounds you, is to ignore that the fly cannot weave a spider web. But at the same time, believing that a fly is incapable of changing a reality is ignoring the fact that its vibration can change the context of the entire Network. The paradox lies in the fact that even though we are projected aspects of the Being, we are still said Being, only expanded, and therefore, to unite the creative power, we need to “co-create”, that is, create together with others; and those others are part of the context that creates us. Recognize the context and you will know the tools that will help you create a new reality.
_I: And how do I receive those tools? That is, how do I know what I can obtain from the external context to transform and harmonize my internal power and thus vibrate high and create?
_AM: Through the concept of Apprehension.
_I: What we learn in life, then, is what we acquire to build our own reality. No?
_AM: You must first understand the difference between Learning and Apprehending. Both come from the same root. However, they have evolved to conceive concepts that are somewhat different from each other. Learn and Apprehend come from the words “Ad” (towards), “prae” (before) and “hendere” (catch, grasp). The concept conveys the idea of being able to capture something. But in the bifurcation of concepts, it is understood that Learning refers to the imitation or assimilation of knowledge or information through constant repetition. However, Apprehend implies something much deeper, because here one seizes said knowledge as one's own, integrates it and makes it part of one's being naturally.
_I: It's like someone who learns mathematics at school for exams but then learns to be a trader and handle numbers from a different context.
_AM: One learns the musical notes, the chords, the scores, but on the other hand one apprehends the music and the melodies.
_I: So, continuing with the example of the context, learning would be that, when a vibration comes to me through the network, from others, I imitate it and replicate it as it has arrived. But on the contrary, if I receive that same vibration, I assimilate it, transform it according to my interior and consciousness, creating a vibration that surpasses the one I received, I will call it apprehension. No?
_AM: Exactly so. Therefore, when you have recognized the contextual world, you must now ask yourself what it is that you have apprehended from it, and what it is that is learned. That is, what are the things that you did that were your own and with which you managed to do something surpassing, and what are the things that you have continued to imitate from your context.
_I: For example, I could say that I took my grandfather's desire to learn new things when I shared reading, drawing and music spaces with him, but I decided to leave the comfort of his routine space to embark on living the experience and adventure of what he read and listened to. I grasped his fascination with the world, but transcending the way in which he experienced it. On the other hand, I recognize that my recurrent depressive state was activated in moments of weakness to attract attention, something that I learned to imitate from my grandfather's sister, my aunt Olga. And I have imitated this for many years.
_AM: The mechanisms of our life are divided into learning and apprehensions, and the first ones we have experienced generally define the way in which we open ourselves to apprehending or learning new things. If you now propose to awaken a new expression in you, like what you are doing: learning a new language, learning piano, all of this will awaken what was registered in your cells through interaction with the environment. The way your cells got used to capturing context during the first years of your life is repeated to this day in your way of incorporating new things. We could say that it is necessary to re-educate the body so that it can assimilate new things.
_I: How do you re-educate a body?
_AM: First you should know that you can't teach a fish to climb a tree, or a monkey how to dive into a reef. What that being has apprehended is what that being has become. Therefore, the first thing you must recognize is: “what have you grasped and learned in his life?” And the next question to ask yourself is “why and for what purpose have you apprehended or learned it?” When someone wants to heal their history and change their life to do something different, they usually avoid the past, or ignore the reason why things have happened in their life. For this reason, you should not question what you experienced, you should understand it, assimilate it.
_I: Then I must ask the questions…
_AM: This is the first question you should ask yourself today, and that I ask you: What was your first word?
_I: According to my family, my first word was “Thank you”; I said mom much later. I clearly said it strangely, but that was it.
_AM: So that your brain and body managed to manifest, before any dependency, the word of gratitude, which makes you live in surprise and gratitude for everything you experience. The first word has a weight in all the thousands that you will learn later, because it is the first apprehension of the creative word, which shapes the vocal cords, the throat, the tongue, to do an exercise that will be registered in your cells and DNA by the rest of your life. The power to communicate. Now tell me, what was the first thing you remember apprehending in your life?
_I: When I think about that, the moment I walked for the first time comes to mind. My grandmother wanted me to crawl, she had that dream, but I never did. In fact, when she tried to push me forward on all fours, I fell forward and broke a newly emerging incisor. My grandmother told me that I never crawled forward a single step, and that out of nowhere, one day I grabbed the chair and moved step by step towards another chair.
_AM: Which marked the path in your life, to move forward, to be a walker, without intermediate steps, without prior searches. Skipping steps builds a psyche and biology that aims to arrive before or faster than the rest, something that undoubtedly shaped your present, as well as your incessant search to do everything now, everything quickly, wanting to skip steps to see beyond what is. Crawling involves looking at the ground, at your hands, at what is close on earth, and yet, whoever stands up, looks at the horizon, at what is far away, and goes out of his way to try to achieve it. So your cells at that moment understood that they had to launch themselves into big and distant things that were almost impossible, and this in turn marked your constant stress looking to the future.
_I: Wow… I never thought that such a small step from one chair to the other at one year old would mark everything I do and am now…
_AM: Well that's right. And tell me, what did you apprehend from your surroundings?
_I: I remember that my fascination with plants and trees, the seed and the fruit, was born from seeing and hearing my aunt Olga's explanations about how to care for them. She always told me about her plants since I was born. I remember my grandmother's action: riding a bicycle, my first time, it was with her, launching into the adventure, the adrenaline; I relate this to her. With my mother, I relate art, creativity and detail and patience, since we both drew together, and did crafts. I remember my great-grandmother's work with the land, helping her in the field that was the garden, harvesting, sowing. From my aunt, play and laughter, the importance of having fun. From my grandfather, I captured listening, silence, humor, love for knowledge. In my environment, I also saw elementals, fairies and goblins, who explained to me about nature and the universe. I remember Sarah, my guardian angel, teaching me about love and forgiveness since I was little, and Kuen, my guide, teaching me about humans and how to relate emotionally to others, as well as doing alchemy with my friends' games. All of this shaped who I am today. I had never thought about it, where all these things came from beyond my astrological chart. I always attribute my attitudes and so on to the Moon, Sun, Mercury, etc., with Leo, Sagittarius, Capricorn, etc., but never with the physical context...
_AM: That's why we have to review these questions. Because your physical body, your greatest tool, is composed of all the apprehension of your human context, of your life here and now.
_I: I am ready, then, to honor what I learned being human in my childhood, to recognize what I am thanks to what has resonated with me in my environment.
_AM: The first word, the first learning, the first apprehension and what everyone in your environment has left you to be who you are, are the doors to build what you will be.
_I: I apprehend.
_AM: Well, we are all a constant network of education.